Reminiscence Interrupted
Part 1
Posted by Steve Beckow
on August 9, 2023
1959 Smith Corona Portable Typewriter – My first new typewriter
This article started out as a memoir and ended in the midst of a spiritual experience of emergence from childhood strictures (see Part 2). I just had to go with it.
Who knew, back in the Sixties and Seventies, that we were in the early years (for us) of an event that would inaugurate a new species of human, in a new region of space – now interdimensional rather than unidimensional – by a process that had never been engaged in before – a mass, physical Ascension of consciousness? (1) Who knew?
Who would have understood what you were talking about if you said aloud what I just wrote, back then? You would have been tolerated, but not understood. Cool, man, cool. Whatever you say, man.
Join the Rosicrucians and the Theosophists in their camp over there.
We thought WE were the new age, the flower children. Now we see that, as true as that always is, there’s something so much bigger happening now than we could ever have wrapped our heads around then. And even what we know now is only the tip of the iceberg.
Back then we didn’t have the wealth of channeled communication – or the opportunity to actually speak to the celestials and galactics in real time – as we’ve had.
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For sure, someone in every recent age has been talking about it, in general terms perhaps.
“Imperator” talked at great length about the “New Religion” in the 1870s. (2) The Master Beinsa Douno described the Ring of Fire/Wave of Love in the early 20th Century. (3)
At mid-century, Silver Birch often talked about the New Age coming. (4)
St. Germain and Hilarion were speaking to us in the Sixties and Seventies. Djwhal Khul and Koot Humi. All was about mystery schools and adepts and a coming New Age in which we’d know God.
The Fifth Dimension was singing It is the Dawning of the Age of Aquarius. (5) Books like Marilyn Ferguson’s The Aquarian Conspiracy gave us understanding and direction. Everyone reported back from treks to India….
And as if to bring undesirable attention to a halt, the music stopped.
The first jobless recovery – from the Recession of 1982 – left a pool of unemployed workers, creating a buyer’s market for labor. Thanks to automation, the release of workers would only continue and increase. The party was over.
Articles were appearing saying stop finding yourself and get a job. The party’s over, etc.
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We wouldn’t have had the language to discuss Ascension back then.
We’ve (OK, I’ve) been through so many adjustments and expansions since then – discovering life has a purpose; seeing that Brahmajnana (God-Realization) is not the be-all and end-all of enlightenment; discovering that enlightenment is virtually endless; that “dimensions” exist; that galactics, archangels, and the Mother exist, all of whom we can speak to….
If we were taffy, I feel well kneaded since those days. And supplied with a vocabulary. And shown a way I can publish my research and have a readership (this blog).
All of this is available now and makes the task of communicating new ideas – what research has uncovered – possible. Otherwise I’d be talking to myself in a closet.
Or writing letters on my new 1959 Smith Corona portable typewriter (see above). My first new typewriter, replacing a 1920s Remington.
“Look what I found!” I’d report to my friends in Oregon and California, to magically get a reply by mail two weeks later.
Oh, wow! We’re in touch!
(Spiritual experience in Part 2, concluded tomorrow.)
Footnotes
(1) See Gateway to Higher Dimensionality: Volume 2: Mass, Physical Ascension into a
Brand, New Space at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/11/Gateway-to-Higher-Dimensionality-V2-R3.pdf
(2) See:
- “Imperator’s ‘New Revelation,’” May 19, 2010, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/the-2012-scenario/2012-history-4/imperators-new-revelation/
- Imperator’s New Revelation at https://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=Imperator%27s_New_Revelation
(3) See:
- “Beinsa Douno: The Wave of Divine Fire,”
- “Beinsa Douno’s Last Prophecy of the Golden Age,”
- “Beinsa Douno’s ‘New Epoch,’” Revised May 19, 2010, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/the-2012-scenario/2012-history-4/beinsa-dounos-new-epoch/
(4) See:
- “Silver Birch’s New World,” Sept. 12, 2022, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2022/09/12/silver-birchs-new-world-2/
- Silver Birch’s New World at https://goldengaiadb.com/index.php?title=Silver_Birch%27s_New_World
(5)
Reminiscence Interrupted
Part 2
1975: Portrait of the artist as a young dog
It isn’t often that I enter into a spiritual experience in the middle of an article. In this one I settled into an expanded sense of myself with the same ease with which one might settle into a warm bath. Not a major event, but quite startling.
Since my sudden flash of recognition of what Archangel Michael wanted from me – by way of co-creative partnership, which he extends to all, not just me (1) – I’ve felt myself continually expand. Day by day.
I’ve taken strong and firm stands on some things I’ve tolerated for … decades. I’m having insights into my own and other’s behavior which I’ve never had before.
[Spiritual experience starts here.] [Italics are mine.]
It’s a little like I’m a balloon and I’m being inflated little by little from the inside out. [I’m actually describing the experience.] Every day I feel more of me present. That’s as close as I can come to describing the experience.
I feel myself expanding as I look deeper into what is happening in this moment.
Observing it, I see that, in the process, I’m healing from all the “should’s” and “do’s” and “don’t’s” I’ve grown up under. Part of what I’m emerging from – and it’s happening as we speak – is the dampening effect of these strictures.
And with that, I feel predominant elements of my everyday feeling state becoming visible. [End of notes.]
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I see that I have an always, already-present element of despair in my overall feeling state. It’s always there as an undertone.
Having named it, I switch into experiencing it (rather than resisting it). I’m in the upset clearing process now. (2)
Long ago I accepted this feeling as the place I could not escape from (and would never escape from) as long as I remained around my Dad. The number of times he spoiled an occasion with his temper brought me to the point of despair. And, the twig having been bent, here I am, the tree.
Now I remember that his boyhood was also searing. I bore the brunt of it all my younger years in classic intergenerational transfer.
And my takeaway was despair. It just became a built-in feature of my emotional state and voice in what Werner Erhard called “the background of obviousness.” I don’t know what life would be like without it.
I experience it further. I breathe into it.
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As each memory arises and is seen and felt, I feel a bit more release. The truth is setting me free.
I remember being kicked under the table and saying to myself that I just cannot trust that man; I need to keep my distance from him and be on guard at all times.
I remember being yelled at for pulling up a carrot, one of the earliest memories I have. I remember being yelled at for coming downstairs as a young child while he was in his workshop. I remember being yelled at for making a mistake with the lawn mower. One was always at risk.
Feeling despair, I next feel heavy, lethargic. This is the guna or cosmic force of thamas and it “rests” on me like a smothering blanket. All initiatives die when this feeling state sets in. Everything goes to hell in a handbasket.
This is not going to be re-experienced and released in the space of an article. I’m going to need to “be with it” until it decides to go, again another benefit of being a hermit.
I realize I’m gonna have to drain my own swamp here and I ask for divine assistance. I invoke the universal law of elimination and the Divine Mother and ask that everything connected to this feeling of despair be removed from me and the energy recycled and reused elsewhere.
Later
My history with my Dad lifted when I saw a benefit to all the petty violence he put me through. He awakened the warrior in me and for that I thank him. Seeing that some good has come of it gives me something to hold on to. After all the years I’ve processed “Life with Father,” I must be ready to let it go.
Footnotes
(1) I’m just the carney barker. See “Co-Creative Partners with the Company of Heaven,” June 12, 2023, at
https://goldenageofgaia.com/2023/06/12/co-creative-partners-with-the-company-of-heaven/
(2) See:
- “How to Handle Unwanted Feelings: The Upset Clearing Process,” April 25, 2011, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/04/25/how-to-handle-unwanted-feelings-the-upset-clearing-process/
- Vasanas: Preparing for Ascension by Clearing Old Issues at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2019/07/Vasanas-Preparing-for-Ascension-R8.pages.pdf
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