On the Path Again

On the Path Again

By Narendra Mishra

Posted on July 24, 2023

It has been some 21 years that I walked along the spiritual path leading up to my experience of Samadhi, and here I am again, once more walking the path. I see them – familiar milestones and markers along the way. I passed them once before, and as I move forward now, it is with the hope that Samadhi, maybe even collective Ascension is just around the corner.

What is Samadhi? It is a Sanskrit word that carries various meanings. One translation may be, ‘coming together as One.’ Samadhi marks the eighth and final stage of Yoga, according to Patanjali in his Yoga Sutras. There are various levels of Samadhi, with Savikalpa and Nirvikalpa being the temporary states of enlightenment that I experienced, and Sahaja being permanent. Ascension I have come to understand, may be equated to Sahaja Samadhi.

In this blog I reflect upon my spiritual journey then and now. There are perhaps as many paths to the Divine as there are aspirants, yet there are considerable degrees of overlap, and many shared themes along the way. I myself enjoy reading the accounts of others, often finding comfort in the overlap and shared experiences; often finding reassurance that I am part of a greater whole; often finding my “tribe and vibe,” if you will. It is in this vein that I share this blog, in the hope that it may do the same for you.

The Divine Vision

When did I arrive on the path to Samadhi this time around? I am not exactly sure, but the first marker I recognised was the loving glance of Sri Krishna as He appeared to me momentarily in a vision. This occurred in December of 2022 when I returned from service to the collective in Turkey. This was in itself an important marker for me, as I will discuss later.

I remember being blessed with the vision of Sri Krishna shortly before my immersion into the bliss of Samadhi at the turn of the millennium. In both instances my experience of the event was the same.

The infinitely loving glance of the Lord was as fiery arrows that seared into my soul, scorching all attachment to everything I had known prior. All desire was burnt save for that of union with Him. Such Love instantly awakened in my Heart, leaping from my chest with such force as if to break free from the confines of the body, desperately seeking union with the Source of Love itself, but thwarted by the gates of Time. Frustrated that I was not allowed to leave this life behind to join The Beloved One, my soul seemed to sink back into the body, tears of joy and longing flowing from my eyes.

It was only a momentary vision, but one that was as transformational now as it was two decades ago. The very next day, as to if to prove the veracity of the vision, a member of the our little meditation group, Sharmila, sent me an image of Sri Krishna that was almost identical to the vision He gave me, save for a few details. To say I was in awe at the synchronicity and resemblance would beggar the emotion.

The Theme of Renunciation

Now, as I write this blog, I believe the vision of the Lord catalysed a renunciation process that began in Turkey and would continue for several more months. My service in Turkey alongside Jennifer seemed to be the last of my service in terms of collective karmic clearing whereby one’s personal karma is quantum entangled with the collective karma such that clearing personal karma also contributed to clearing collective karma.

After being guided to retire from this phase of service, I believe Sri Krishna came forward in a moment of Divine Grace to burn away layers of personal karma alongside the quantum entanglement with collective karma, through the vision of His infinite Divine Love. For me, it seemed like the universe responded to my desire to retire with a resounding, “Yes.”

Renunciation seemed to have been the theme for me personally since then. In the traditional 3D model of life according to the Vedic teachings, renunciation is the fourth and final stage of life whereby one renounces all material possessions and joins a monastery, or becomes a [wandering]  Sadhu. However, in a 5D model, I surmise that renunciation may not be of material things but spiritual things.

Archangel Michael in his July 2022 message as transmitted through Ronna Vezane confirms that renunciation is a major theme in the ascension process:

“A period of great renunciation prefaces the complete transition out of the Fourth Human Kingdom: the seven sub-levels of the Fourth Dimension… (Each person’s renunciation process varies depending on the overlay of negative vibrational patterns they carry within from his or her many past life experiences).​” 

Since the most recent vision of  Sri Krishna in December 2022, I have been steadily renouncing various aspects and layers of my life, terminating most recently with shattering the ego-persona I had built post-samadhi. At the peak of my immersion into Samadhi, around 2003, I was asked by a voice within whether I was ready to, “go to the next level.”

Without thinking I responded that I wanted to serve inside the illusion (Maya) and awaken the collective from within. In hindsight I believe that was an invitation to personal ascension – Sahaja Samadhi. However, that wish was granted and the Great Illusion (Maya) once more seeped into my mind, clouding the vision of pure Love that permeated and held all of creation with a sublime Grace that was beyond comprehension.

Over the intervening 21 years or so, I gradually developed a sub-personality that was dedicated to awakening people. Without realising it, the illusion of being personally responsible for collective ascension overcame me. It was a burden I did not know I was shouldering for years until recently.

The revelation and subsequent renunciation came when Jennifer gently pointed out that she perceived two parallel personalities in me – one that carried compassion born of samadhi, and another that was led by ego. (1) This was a great gift, though the fall of the ego was hard. Very hard.

As I went through the difficult healing and integration process over the past few months, I came to realise that I was renouncing not service itself, but the pride I took in being able to serve. I became aware of how much attachment I held to my spiritual gifts and achievements. This I was guided to renounce.

“You have a right to perform your prescribed duties, but you are not entitled to the fruits of your actions. Never consider yourself to be the cause of the results of your activities, nor be attached to inaction.” Bhagavad Gita 2:47

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The Divine Mother is Real

The Divine Mother is Real

Narendra Mishra

Posted by Steve Beckow

 on March 29, 2023

Narendra Mishra recounts his divine experience with the Divine Mother and the lesson she taught him.

The Divine Mother Is Real

Awakening Spark, 22/3/2023

https://awakeningspark.com/blog/the-divine-mother-is-real

The Divine Mother is the All That Is. She is the Prime Source, Prime Creator. All that exists is of/by/through Her. She is the ultimate reality.

What do I mean when I say she is real? I mean she is as real in the flesh and blood as she is as a transcendent Consciousness. She is both immanent and transcendent.

This is an account of the Divine Mother appearing to me in physical form. I confess this is a difficult piece for me to write for I have held this experience so very close to me for so many years that it is difficult to let it out. Yet, it is Her Will that I share this now. It is only to Her Glory that I do so.

It is fitting, poetic even, that this account of the manifestation of the Divine Mother be shared now as we celebrate the Navratri, the nine night festival of the Divine Mother, commencing March 22, 2023. It is also the beginning of the Hindu New Year, celebrating the arrival of Spring- the dawn of the solar year. However, it was not during a Navratri festival that the Divine Mother appeared.

Rather, this took place during the Ganesh Chaturthi, at the Devi Mandir which my family runs in Chaguanas, Trinidad. We were celebrating the birth of the beloved Hindu deity, Ganesh, considered to be born of the Divine Mother as Uma or Parvati, and the Divine Father as Shiva.

At the time I was in the role of musician, accompanying my father who was discoursing from the scriptures. I was seated on the temple carpets, engrossed in the hymns and my accompaniment on the tabla– the Indian drums.

My head was bowed with my eyes closed, oblivious to the queue of devotees who had now gathered in front of the murti (consecrated statue) of Ganesh, waiting patiently to make their offerings of love in the form of fruits and sweets. As was the custom, some of them would move on to also offer Arti– the waving of the sacred lamp, to the Pundits (Hindu priests) present, myself included, as a sign of respect. It was then that it happened.

My head bowed, eyes closed, focussed on the music, a voice from within suddenly spoke in my mind,

“Shiva and Parvati are doing your Arti.”

I looked up, stunned. Dressed as an unassuming, elderly East Indian couple was the Divine Mother and Divine Father standing in front of me, offering Arti to me. (2)

It’s funny how the mind can sometimes notice the simplest detail when in shock. The Divine Mother was of slight frame, and wore a simple black dress with small floral prints of white, pink and blue in the fashion and cut that only the elderly would wear, with a traditional head scarf adorning Her head.

The Divine Father was of a slightly heavier build, complete with a healthy stomach. He wore brown dress pants, hems rolled up above the ankles as elderly men would sometimes do, and a simple blue shirt jacket. His eyes were half-closed, and he was not looking at me as he stood to the side of the Divine Mother, hands touching Hers as she made the offering of Arti.

The Divine Mother was looking at me directly, never once breaking Her gaze from my eyes as she completed the Arti.

Oh the Joy! The Love! The Sparkle and Twinkle in Her eyes!

Her eyes were knowing and mischievous, speaking of a secret as of two lovers on either ends of a room, sharing a secret knowing between them with only the look in their eyes. She seemed to respond to my thoughts, now a maelstrom as I took it all in.

“Oh my God! It is Shiva and Parvati! Here! In the flesh! Doing my Arti! What should I do? Bow before them? Stand up and announce their presence to everyone?”

The loving look in the Mother’s eyes said it all. I was to stay silent and do nothing. So I sat and continued playing the tabla, mentally prostrating myself instead. She smiled in acknowledgment.

“Oh what a wonder is this,” I thought, “That the Divine Mother/Father One will come to honour Ganesh on His holy day, and even do Arti to me, embodying the teachings and practices of the scriptures.”

I was humbled. Completing my Arti, they left the temple. Needless to say, I have never seen them before, nor since.

​Even in the whirlwind of my thoughts the symbolism of the clothing they chose was not lost on me. Here was Shiva, dressed in blue- a colour often associated with Him as the Blue-Throated One. Furthermore, His eyes were half-closed, as is often depicted in the many pictures of him in meditation.

The Divine Mother wore colourful floral patterns against a black background, as if to show that She emerges from the Eternal, Unmanifest Void that is the Divine Father, in all Her colour, glory, and splendour.

It seemed as though they chose clothing that would convince my skeptical mind, were it even a possibility that I would be in doubt. That voice, however, speaking from within me, from depths far, far beyond the mind and intellect, brooked no doubt. This was the Divine Mother and Father, here now in form.

​What were my emotions at the time, you may rightly ask. I’m embarrassed to say I felt very little emotion at the time. Perhaps my mind got in the way, or perhaps it was a managed spiritual experience.

Now however, as I write this piece, I relive the experience and my heart opens. What I did not feel then I feel now. I am flooded with tears of joy and gratitude. My soul soars in adoration and glory to the Divine Mother as I dance in the ethers, singing Her praises. I join in the chorus of song, incessantly sung by every Sun, Galaxy, and Universe, sung by each and every atom of creation that adores Her. I bow to Her on all sides and directions, awed by Her Beauty and Magnificence. She is the Divine Mother, She is the One, and She is Real.

All Glory to the Divine Mother. Jai Maa!

Footnotes

(1) I believe that spiritual experiences may be managed by the Divine Mother and the company of heaven. Perhaps this is why I am meant to share this experience now- to experience the heart opening aspect of it that I could not have had earlier for some reason. See for example this article by Steve Beckow of Golden Age of Gaia, Enlightenment: A Managed Experience?

 

Steve Beckow

 

• https://goldenageofgaia.com/